Not so much in control

I'm not having a very good day. Finances are stressing me out, two of my dogs got in a fight, and it's raining. I should be able to suck it all up, but it's not happening today. I tend to fall back to my old ways when I get too stressed out, and my old ways involve mindless eating to relieve the stress. Ugh!

It's getting late in the day, though, so I'll just try to make it thru dinner without doing further damage, go to bed, get up and start tomorrow on a brighter note.

Crash and burn?!

Alas, my focus for the past week has not been on controlling my hand-in-mouth disease. I know I've been eating with abandon, and I know it's due to worry and stress over finances and the lack of a full-time job. Well, hopefully, that's been remedied today. I have a job offer, and I've accepted it, so maybe there is one less thing to stress me out.

I will be in an office with other people, and I tend to be more conscious of my eating around others, so they don't get a bad opinion of me based on my eating habits. Is that weird? Do other people do that too? (I always wonder what I would be like if I were rich and famous and had papparazzi following me around -did you SEE what she was eating?!?!) So, hopefully, I will get back on track again shortly. But, tonight we are having a celebration!!

Starting over.....I BLEW IT!

How frustrating can this be? My inability to control myself caused me to backslide by 2 pounds. I had lost 4 and already gained 2 back. Frustrating, annoying, embarrassing, you name it, that's how I feel. I can blame it on the goodies all over the house, the stress of the death in the family, the stress of a job interview, and all those things that happened since the first of the year.

So, today, I am starting over. "If at first you don't succeed...", and all that. I CAN DO THIS!!!!!! I know I can, if I just focus on it. Or maybe I need to not focus on it. I can't really decide what works better. I just know that I have loads of stuff to keep me busy so I shouldn't be thinking about food except when I get hungry. (It might be a first for me, but other people do it, why can't I?!)